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May 7, 2008

Random Thoughts

Life is like a butterfly, it goes where it pleases and it pleases where it goes.

Life is truly full of surprises, and it never stops from teaching us lessons as long as we’re willing to learn.

I continue to learn things about myself regularly, some good, some bad, some outstanding and some disappointing. But disappointments are everywhere; we can’t escape them so it’s up to us to decide what we take from them.

There are many lessons that life has offered me so far and some were more monumental then others, and what’s more to come will be as such I suspect. One very important lessons I learned some time ago is that It's easy for anyone to be happy when all is going well, the real challenge is to be happy when things are difficult and confusing.

It's important to be happy within, it is imperative in fact, however we're are happier when we love, and when we give. I think that is true happiness.

Am I happy? YES, I am.

I believe “happiness” is often a choice and not circumstances, however we do let those dictate much of our happiness most of the time, because we’re humans.

Speaking of human, that is another thing I’ve learned, struggled with and accepted - the complexity of us humans, one that no other living specie on this planet has. We, Homo sapiens, are the most complex living creature ever existed. We can do as much good as we can do damage; we can love as much as we can hate; we can give as much as we can take away. No other living creature has the capability of such actions, emotions, and influence. What WE do, affects the whole planet. We are capable of great things, but also of disastrous ones.

I’ve learned that you can love in all directions, and that we are like wells of infinite love to give – there is plenty for everyone (as I always say), however, I’d be a hypocrite and arrogant if I said that the love I have to give is spread equally. It isn’t. And if that were the case then I wouldn’t be human, I’d be a robot with a chip called love that feeds equally at all times. I think that would make us emotionless.

A mother (father) loves her (his) children to no end, unconditionally.

Mother love is the fuel that enables a normal human being to do the impossible.

A mother understands what a child does not say.

A mother’s love never tires.

A wise man said to me yesterday when I peeked his brain about some feelings I was having: “Marianna, why do we plant olive trees? Not for ourselves, but for our children, our future. By the time an olive tree is ready to provide the fruit we have already gone. We plant it for the intention to pass it on – to our children.

I thought that was beautiful, especially for someone who doesn’t even have children.

It’s like marriage, marriage it’s meant to be forever, we make a bond of love and a commitment that’s supposed to last to the end of our days, yet that’s not always the case anymore.

The most talked about thing is love. The most lived and felt emotion is love. So many beautiful songs, poems, books and movies and yet I look around and wonder if we write and talk about something so much because we all long for what in reality is very rare to come by. Can one person make you feel like you’re the key link to true love and happiness? Are we asking for too much? Are we asking to feel something that we don’t even fully understand? The love of Romeo and Juliet – Marc Anthony and Cleopatra, was it as intense as we write about?

In any soul mate relationship, we need to let go of the illusion that there is a perfect person waiting for us who will fulfill our every expectation and give our personality everything it desires once we are together. Do not expect your ideal soul mate to be someone who is always loving and easy to get along with, who agrees with everything you say or do, and who brings you a life of ease and comfort. We may experience our soul mate in this way at times, and at other times this person may challenge us to love as your soul does through his or her unevolved expressions of love. Soul mates always bring you growth and give you many chances to awaken your heart centers. Sometimes this process of growth is easy, and sometimes it is not. Soul mate relationships offer you wonderful opportunities to work at the soul level.

I’ve looked up the term soulmate and its definition:
Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality and/or compatibility. A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul – which is thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.

Someone who has a special mission or influence on one's life

And with whom you are deeply connected and share a common path and purpose. Your soul mate may be someone who has come to be with you and learn similar lessons. Or, it can be someone who has come to assist you in your spiritual growth by showing you more about yourself and offering you ways to open your heart.

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

[Song title “soulmate” by Natasha Bedingfield]

Even animals such as apes and elephants understand the true meaning of love amongst themselves, and it’s evident from how they mourn the death of one of their own, yet, most humans diminish the importance of our own and are always in search for something else, a greater and higher reason of our existence – searching for the truth as some may say (or as I recently watched the movie “into the wild”). I can’t decide if it’s arrogance or ignorance.

Moses was told to take two of every specie from earth, a female and male, on to his ark, I often wonder if most of us truly get it.

Apr 24, 2008


Until we can love one another for who and what we are , there can be no peace.

There for love one another , we are One family.

"Nonviolence is the greatest force at the disposal of mankind. It is mightier than the mightiest weapon of destruction devised by the ingenuity of man."

I think there are many paths to the top of the mountain and that everyone has a perfect right *not* to take any of them. I *do* chose to travel to the top of the mountain, though it is on my own path. I'm not even sure there is anything *at* the top of the mountain, but I think the journey is worth it.

Apr 9, 2008

A Moment of Happiness

A moment of happiness,
you and I sitting on the verandah,
apparently two, but one in soul, you and I.
We feel the flowing water of life here,
you and I, with the garden's beauty
and the birds singing.
The stars will be watching us,
and we will show them
what it is to be a thin crescent moon.
You and I unselfed, will be together,
indifferent to idle speculation, you and I.
The parrots of heaven will be cracking sugar
as we laugh together, you and I.
In one form upon this earth,
and in another form in a timeless sweet land.eet

Mar 6, 2008

Remember tonight...for it is the beginning of always.

I carry your heart with me by E. E. Cummings
i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Mar 3, 2008

Feb 6, 2008

Someone once said: the most important thing in life is LOVE...

I recently read somewhere "Our mother is the teacher who first teaches us love, the most important subject in life". "Without my mother I could never have known how to love. Thanks to her I can love my neighbors. Thanks to her I can love all living beings. Through her I acquired my first notions of understanding, loving unconditionally and compassion."

"Sometimes we must ignore what
others know of ourselves as seen through their eyes and the world around them, and delve deep into our own selves to find who we truly are. In order to be truly capable of loving another human being one must remember that it's not necessary to search for meaning in other people or their own agendas; just be confident of your own distinct gifts, challenges and dreams".

There are many different ways to love someone (even yourself), love is the continual act of unconditionally putting the needs of others before your own.

As I listen to this song tonight (for the millionth time), I sit in awe, deeply immersed in my own thoughts. I've never heard lyrics so beautiful! The best words ever written to describe what love truly is.

Jan 25, 2008

Tingles in silly places

"be more open to the mystery of LIFE and be open to thinking the mystery IS where you'll find love AND peace."

Jan 24, 2008

Somewhere I have never travelled, gladly beyond

somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look will easily unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose

or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully ,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;
nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility:whose texture
compels me with the color of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands

[ee cummings]

Jan 22, 2008

My Sister, My Angel.

21, that's how how old you would've been today. I miss you. I miss the 2 and a half year old sister I had running around, calling my name, singing my songs, repeating 'bad' words. What would life have given you had it not been taken away? I wonder, but it's impossible to imagine. You look down and see what life has given us so far, and I'm sure you're smiling. Sometimes I wonder why it is that those who have lost so much are still able to smile and why is it that those who have been given so much are unable to.

I smile, a lot. Most of the time. I am thankful and I have peace in my heart for the most part. But we wouldn't be human if we didn't lose ourselves on occasion. It's in the weak, vulnerable moments that we are truly reminded of how fragile we can be, it is also in those moments that we are reminded of our strengths. Thanks to you I am strong and I've learned to see life for the beauty it has - even when that beauty is on occasion clouded with smoke. You have given me a life's lesson that has changed me and bettered me for ever. Your death has thought me how to truly love. Fair trade? Afraid not, however the greatest gift I've ever been given.

I miss you and I carry you in my heart, always, my little Chicca.